This Transgender Woman Still Gets Called ‘Dad’ By Her Daughter

By Amy Walters

MEET THE woman who still gets called DAD by her daughter after undergoing gender reassignment surgery and admits she was JEALOUS of her ex-wife’s ability to carry her.

Sales consultant, Rachel Doese (30) from Iowa, USA, had feelings that they were transgender – male to female – ever since they were just six-years-old.

However, Rachel knew that the idea of not identifying with their biological gender was considered ‘not normal’ and a ‘taboo’, so they repressed these feelings until they were 28-years-old.

After growing up with gender dysphoria – where people whose gender identity differs from their biological gender, experience feelings of discomfort and distress – they found it difficult to live day to day life.

In August 2011, they met their now ex-wife, Lindsey Doese-Jaggers (27) and the two got engaged in December 2013, going on to wed in August 2014, which Rachel was so excited about, as she felt it would fill the void that had always existed.

After three years, Lindsey gave birth to their daughter, Raelee Doese (3) and they were both ecstatic. However, the two separated in February 2019, due to mutual differences.

In a bid to start being her authentic self, she began by taking a hormone prescription in April 2019 and when she started to notice the changes, she told her family, friends and co-workers.

She then started wearing make-up and dressing more feminine, which was when her daughter became curious and asked why her dad was now wearing make-up – but Raelee didn’t seem phased by the changes and has accepted Rachel for who she is.

“I knew I was transgender back when I was six-years-old. However, I knew it wasn’t normal and a taboo – this led me to repress those feelings until I was twenty-eight-years-old,” said Rachel.

“From a young age, the main sign was just a complete feeling of dread whenever I saw my body. No matter if I was skinny, fat, muscular, or anything in between, no matter how many people saw me as attractive – something literally always felt wrong.

“Growing up with gender dysphoria really put a damper on my childhood – I didn’t fit in with the boys and I didn’t fit in with the girls and the anxiety and depression caused by gender dysphoria clouded a large portion of my life.

“I met my ex-wife in August 2011 at the Iowa State Fair, where we worked together as security guards and we went on to get engaged in December 2013 and wed in August 2014.

“I was excited to get married, as I felt it was the next step in my life and would fill the void I always felt.

“Lindsey fell pregnant in September 2016 and gave birth to our little girl, Raelee Doese, on May 22, 2017, and I was totally ecstatic, as I always wanted a child of my own.

“Although, there was a fair amount of jealousy felt, as I was envious at how close Lindsey was able to be to Raelee during the pregnancy.”

Lindsey and Rachel split in February 2019 and shortly after, she joined a transgender support group, where she was given the number of a doctor who specialised in transgender care.

“I set an appointment with the doctor, who then gave me my hormone prescription. Once they started producing changes, I came out to all my family, friends, and co-workers,” said Rachel.

“I told Lindsey two months after we split and although she was resistant at first, she has come around to being an amazing friend and great ally.

“I started transitioning when my daughter was only one-year-old and I began wearing makeup and slowly dressing more feminine.

“One day, my daughter asked me why I’m wearing makeup and I simply told her ‘because I like it’ and that was the end of her questions.

“My daughter is the absolute best, as she is the most accepting kid I’ve ever met and she is always there to give me a big hug and let me know she’s here for me – I’m in awe at how truly open minded a three-year-old can be.

“Every day she tells me ‘I love you’ and, ‘you look beautiful’ – I don’t think I’d have the strength to be my authentic self without her.

“She still refers to me as ‘dad’ and that’s fine – I respect her and let her choose what to call me.

“My friends have been really accepting, but my family has been a little slower to adapt and although they know I’m transgender, they refuse to use proper names or pronouns.

“Prior to my transition, I was depressed, anxious and never happy – I was incomplete. Now, I’m happier than ever, a better parent, and a more successful business person – just finally whole.

“Times are changing and I’m in a very conservative area of the United States where transgender people are rare – yet, I’ve been out for two years and have never had an ounce of hate in my direction.

“It’s never too late to come out and your happiness and mental health is so important – if I can do it, anyone can.”