By Rebecca Drew
THIS WOMAN says some people view her as a GODDESS thanks to her colossal size as she has gained almost TWENTY-ONE-AND-A-HALF-STONE in just three-years and hopes to one day be the heaviest woman ever in the Guinness Book of World Records.
Feedee web model, known only as Lilith the Cenobite (26) from Faial, Azores, grew up in a poor background where food was hard to come by. On top of this, Lilith struggled with anorexic thoughts and disordered eating throughout her teens where she saw food as a forbidden thing that shouldn’t be openly indulged in or enjoyed.
The fear and guilt Lilith associated with food and eating disappeared when she was diagnosed with terminal hepatic encephalopathy in 2015, a complication of cirrhosis of the liver caused by a build of iron from transfusions she received to treat the rare condition, Thalassaemia, that she was born with.
This shock diagnosis changed her way of thinking about food and gave her the opportunity to finally be able to indulge in food. This is when she discovered the feedism community online that involves gaining weight to fulfil a sexual fetish, however Lilith insists that she only eats when a feeder feeds her or provides her with food to eat.
Since becoming involved in the community three-years ago, Lilith has put on an incredible 21st 6lb, going from 8st to her current weight of 29st 10lb. After her terminal diagnosis, she is now aiming to go down in history by becoming the heaviest living woman and heaviest woman ever in the Guinness Book of World Records.
“If you’re a feedee, it’s a fetish involving eating, stuffing, and gaining weight. If you’re a feeder, it’s a fetish around feeding someone, stuffing them and helping them gain weight,” explained Lilith.
“I literally don’t eat anything at all unless it is provided to me by a feeder.
“I grew up homeless so food was hard to come by. If someone ever fed me, it was done out of love. I also spent most my life with anorexia, food was this great big forbidden thing that existed just to torment me.
“So a few years ago when I found out I was terminal, I decided to indulge in my guilty little secret, and eat as much as I possibly could.
“I want to gain. Break records. Leave behind something historic. My weight gain, weight loss, and weight stagnation are all beyond my control.
“Given that I only eat if, and when someone chooses to feed me, my weight is entirely at the whim of the feedism community. Hopefully I get fed enough to reach my goal.
“My job is as a web model and video star. Many of my fans watch because they like the fact I keep growing. I’ve gained almost 21-and-a-half-stone in three years.”
Thalassaemia is the name for a group of inherited conditions that effect haemoglobin in the blood. One of the main problems associated with the condition is excess iron in the body due to treatment to address anaemia which can cause problems with the heart, liver and hormones if left untreated.
The current record for the heaviest living woman is 45st 13lb and the current record for heaviest ever woman is 85st.
Due to only eating when a feeder provides her with food, Lilith never knows what she is going to eat in a day.
Finally, she hit back at people who might criticise her lifestyle and spoke out about body positivity to other larger ladies.
“You can’t use my health as a reason, because I’m dying in a few years anyway,” said Lilith.
“You can’t use state assistance as a reason because I’m not on it. You can’t use my looks as a reason because I’m seen as a goddess to loads of people out there.
“So there are no valid reasons to complain, just admit you don’t like fat people.
“A lot more people are into BBW (Big Beautiful Women) and SSBBW (Super-Sized Big Beautiful Women) than you think. Most just keep it to themselves.
“There are millions out there who’d love to look like you, or date you.”
For more information see www.instagram.com/cenobite_lilith and www.cenobitelilith.com.